You won’t know how something is like until you feel it.
“Grabe naman si Ma’am ang daming pinapagawa!”
“Akala mo naman ichi-check talaga ni Sir.”
“Ang hirap hirap naman ‘tong exam na to!”
Those were my complaints ever since I started studying. Those were my complaints every single time that I’m in school. Those were my complaints before…
Before I stepped into the real arena – the real classroom setting.
Before I stepped into Indonesia.
Before I stepped into UNSYIAH.
If I only knew that studying was way easier than teaching, I wouldn’t have said what I said back then. Teaching was hard – no, it was more than that. Teaching is everything but easy. I’ll tell you why.
Look at the pictures below:
Those were my students’ worksheets. They may look simple in your eyes but they’re not. At all. I thought checking essays, answers, projects, fill-in-the-blank quizzes and illustrations were easy – that you’ll just give them points as you like. But, no. It was not done that way. You have to have a criteria – a rubric. And boy was it hard to make one rubric. How much more if you have to make more than that?
Oh and I almost forgot the hardest one of all… LESSON PLAN. Back then, I thought teachers just go to the classroom and then teach right there and then but no, I thought wrong. Teachers have to prepare before going into the classroom. They have to KNOW the lesson by heard. They have to have instructional materials. They have to have several strategies, techniques and methods before going into the classroom. They have to have a plan.
And a back up plan. And another back up plan for the back plan.
DOES TEACHING STILL SOUND EASY?
[WARNING] Long post ahead. Read at your own risk.
Should I be scared? Should I be excited? Should I be sad? Should I be happy? I didn’t what to feel that time but, one thing is for sure (I already told you) I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL.
I know I might sound very confusing but maybe, just maybe, I felt it all – I felt every emotion there is to feel. Sorry for my blabbering. Just watch the video below.
You may think that we were overreacting but boy, it was first time okay? F I R S T T I M E – Yes! You heard it right — I mean you READ it right. Whatever. I’m blabbering again. Anyways, it was my first time to board a plane; thus, you cannot blame me if I reacted that way.
Since you’re already here, I think you ought to watch the next video. Enjoy!
WE ARE NOW IN KUALA LUMPUR, MALAYSIA AND I CAN’T EXPLAIN WHAT I’M FEELING. I WAS SUPPOSED TO REACT IN THE VIDEO EXAGGERATEDLY BUT SINCE I’M PROTECTING MY SO CALLED “PRIDE AND DIGNITY” (YES I HAVE THOSE TWO IN CASE YOU’RE IN DOUBT) I have to stay calm and collected. Just like what I’m doing right now.
(SILENCE) *kruu kruu kruu*
So yeah… what else? Right. We’ll be staying here for 10 hours and we do not know what to do. At all. Originally, we planned to go to Petronas Towers and to some places near KLIA2 but, since we’re scared to get lost, we just stayed.
To make the long story short, we just roamed around the airport and slept. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
And hello Banda Aceh! That ride from KL to BTJ was fast.
*kruu kruu kruu*
Now I really don’t know what to say. I’m just mesmerized. That’s it.
Okay last one. Sorry…
August 5, 2017, Saturday – the day which I dreaded to come the most.
This was the day that I'd last see my room, my home, and my family (for 30 days at least). I was afraid to go because of the thought of going out of my comfort zone made me cringe in pain – not literally but yeah, you get my point. I was afraid that this "project" won't meet if not exceed my expectations. I had and I still have really high hopes on this so-called project and so far…
August 5, 2017, Saturday – the day which I wanted to come the most.
I could not sleep properly for two straight days knowing that I'd no longer be the one who waits in the arrival section but someone who goes to the departure area. I was so excited that I could not think of anything but the thought of me boarding a plane and going to another country. Some people might say that I should let go of this low-lying dream and just think of something lofty. I have given it a thought but I just could not help but feel all giddy because finally, one of my dreams is just few hours away from me. I also couldn't wait to see the university and meet my mentors and my would-be students and so far…